My name is Jessica An, I live in Ontario Canada. I turned 16 years old on February 11th. Honestly my life is great. I have amazing friends and family (: I’m not depressed, I am straight, I don’t cut myself and I don’t do drugs or smoke cigarettes.. I’m not about to write how depressed I am and how much I hate my life like most people do with these. Just a way to talk.. I guess like a diary but one time entry. I don’t expect anyone to read this, but as you can see in my pictures I am an overweight person. I weigh quite a bit but I’m not gonna say it on here. I was born like this though.. I was born overweight and I have had to live with it my whole life. I have something where I lose weight 20x slower than a normal person. If only people knew the real story in why I’m over weight I wonder if I would get treated differently. What people don’t know is how hard I try to lose weight. No one know’s the real reason I’m over weight. Everyone just assumes it’s cause I eat a lot, but the truth is I don’t eat a lot at all, I try whatever I can to lose weight but because of the problem I have, it’s soo hard. I honestly get made fun of every single day of my life. Wether it’s from someone at school, at the store, on the street or in my house. People point at me, people call me names, people look at thier friends and laugh. One of the worst is when I’ll be walking down the hall or something and I’ll see some random down the hall, they look at me, laugh, tap thier friend(s) on the shoulder and the all look at me and start laughing to themselves and then I have to continue walking by them and just be disgusted by how ignorant people can actually be. It’s pathetic how an innocent person can’t feel good about themselves because some asshole as to ruin thier day. For all the people who make me feel good about myself, I honestly thank them soo much because they accept me for who I am. I am a normal human being just like everyone, there is absolutely nothing differen’t about me than there is you. I know I’m not perfect, but honestly no one is. There is not one person in this world who is better than everyone. Everyone is the same, everyone is beautiful and everyone is wonderful. Everyone should be respected and treated the way everyone wants to be treated. I pray for everyone every night, everyone in the world no matter who you are, I care about you and I wish you a great future <3 I don’t know if anyone will actually read this, besides maybe my friends, but I hope you do. Read this before you judge me and, know the real story before you judge anyone. Instead of judging them and bullying and being an asshole. Try having a heart and compliment them. I honestly compliment someone everyday, wether it’s a stranger, my friend, my family or another adult. It feels good to make someone smile. You should try it. Even calling yourself beautiful helps. Don’t let the name calling get to you, don’t let what other people say get to you. I have learned to ignore it and keep living my life and being happy. I am soo used to being made fun of that I just laugh and ignore it. Why would I let it get to me ? I’m better than that. I am beautiful, I have a heart and I’m happy. If you look in the mirror right before you go to school or maybe when you wake up and just look at yourself and just give yourself the biggest smile and remember how beautiful you are and how happy you should be, it makes you feel good, it really does. Don’t let anyone ruin your day. You will all find people in your life that is gonna be there for you no matter what, till the day you die. There is someone out there for everyone. Be patient and keep living. Don’t listen to anyone, You’re beautiful and you always will be. <3 I love you all <3 Now for all you girls and boys who think you are overweight or ugly when you’re not.. shut the fuck up PLEASE, because if only you knew what it’s like to actually be overweight! My number one pet peeve is when skinny girls call themselves fat or ugly when they know damn well they’re not. It’s not gonna get you the attention you want so just shut up and keep your mouth shut.
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
12:31 am
P.s: Stay beautiful <3 (:
& Zooey Deschanel is my idol <3 (:
Love, Jessica An.
